I've focused on personal growth, I've focused on healing the relationship with my mom, I've focused on my art, I've focused on my activism and community building, I've focused on relationships, and I've focused on becoming/being a father. I have focused on many things. Everything I have focused on, for the most, I've made happen. Literally. But, I've yet to focus on business. To be honest with you, I've had some fears. Fear of success is real. I knew for a long time that if I focused on business, I'd become really successful, and I wondered what that would mean for some of the relationships I cared deeply about. When I was flat broke but receiving awards from government officials, people I loved talk about me. They said I thought I was better than folks. That's never been my mindset. I was broke. I was drinking and smoking almost daily. I had a terrible diet. I had back issues that made it nearly impossible to walk sometimes. I didn't think I was better than anyone. I was only trying to become a better person for myself. That was it.
So, I was comfortable struggling because, in some regards, although others around me were making money, they weren't doing what I was doing, and so things kind of balanced out. Because of that, I neglected structure. I neglected consistency and discipline. It was tough. But you know, I accepted it because I felt that I shouldn't be hitting on all cylinders if those around me weren't. Man. What wild thoughts. I no longer have that mindset. And so, for the first time, I'm now shifting my focus to building my business. I have my LLC, and I have a solid business plan.
It's time. It's time to put those fears to rest. It's time to focus on building something that outlives me. I have children. The reason I wrote my book to my daughter when I did was so if I transitioned, she would have something to build on and generate income from. That same reason rings true now. But now, I also have a bunch of others that could benefit from my success. My family, my friends, and many communities I'm part of can benefit from my success. And so I must push myself. I must be more focused, more disciplined, and more consistent. I must also be more courageous and more creative. I'm confident. I'm confident in my vision as a valid solution to many problems people face, whether individually or collectively as a family, organization, or company. I'm confident in my skills and I'm confident in my network. I have unyielding faith. And so I'm ready.
I'm currently in the process of planning my business launch for March. I'm excited. I'm taking everything that I've been doing throughout my life and putting it together under one umbrella. Lashawn Marston Enterprises. That's it. I don't have all the answers, and things aren't perfect with it right now, but I know that if I don't put it out there not only will it never be, but those who can benefit from my services won't be able to. And so, I'm taking my shackles off and I'm putting Lashawn Marston Enterprises out there.
Stay tuned for my website update and the information on the business launch. I believe in myself just as much as I believe in all the dreams and builders out there.
It's time! Let's get it 💪🏿
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